Easter

I wore a purple dress and we spent the day outside. The whole family (minus Rickie) stood on the patio, on the back porch, in the field. We stomped through grass to try and get Bella and Liam to be comfortable with one another. Mackenzie wore a chicken onesie and John wore jeans. He got […]

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The Babysitter

Today the dog made me cry. I have spent many days with her alone. Alone in the apartment learning her habits and her glances. Playing rope, and ball. Taking her out to pee. Introducing her to my family. Petting her head and her neck. Talking to her in dulcet tones. Massaging her hips, giving her […]

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April showers, bring May flowers

Mackenzie puts the ‘blushing’ in ‘blushing bride’ for many reasons. Her beauty. Her kindness. Her sense of fun. Her ability to turn anything into sexual innuendo. Her Bridal shower was exactly what a shower should be. Small. Full of people who love her. Full of good food and a lot of laughter. Women, strong and […]

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Adjustment

I saw something the other day that said “Don’t compare, people don’t post their failures.” And it got me thinking about what failure is. What it means. When I feel like one. What I do to NOT feel like one. And then I thought, ok-so-when did it become so terrible to fail? When did getting everything […]

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Simplify

True to it’s name the day was full of sunshine. Life, and all its complications and aggravations are no match for the nice weather. I feel stressed and overwhelmed but the window is open and the evening coming on slowly. I can watch it approaching, the sun casting it’s last glow on the large building […]

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Questions to myself for Spring:

The light is changing, why can’t you?Why can’t you let warmth touch the places that have been cool and dark through the winter?Why can’t you trace your own dust lines on the furniture without feeling guilty? How can that guilt live in the sunlight? Doesn’t it just shrivel when you bring it out and fully see […]

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Light leaning

Daylight savings is upon us and although the days are now going to be blessedly brighter, the night’s lose some dark and it takes my body some time to rectify the loss of even an hour of sleep. I awoke today groggy, swollen and heartsore. A bad fight with John has left us shuffling around […]

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The choosing

I think there are moments that are in suspension of choosing. And I think when you see these moments are upon you, you have to give in to the weightlessness of being untethered. And let whatever will be, be And then I think you need to choose. And when you choose, know it’s ok to […]

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