Lullaby

I’ve been sleeping so deep lately, as though a spell has been cast. My head hits the pillow and I extinguish like a flame blown out by loving lips. A soft puff of air and I falter and go under, not able to resurface for the whole night. It is not unlike walking towards a […]

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Forgiveness…

…is allowing someone to sleep when you want them awake. …is saying that it will be ok when you aren’t sure if it will. …is calling and listening to what people have to say when you are embarrassed. …is making sure that saying “I love you” is the last thing they hear before they leave. […]

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Cookies

I watched Mom kneed cookie dough for the first time this season and I snuck pieces of it when she wasn’t looking. I sat right there a the kitchen table awaiting scraps like a little dog. My cold is settling in my ears but I did take my coloring book down from my shelf while […]

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Homeward Bound

I must make home within my own heart, my broken, busted, earthquaked heart full to the brim with memories and hope and earth with the possibility of something new to grow. You have to clear the field before you plant. The death of all the past year, of who I was, has to happen as […]

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Sisters

When I think about you, I imagine you wearing yellow and how the sun catches your hair red-gold. I imagine a space that is so white it is blinding, and sunlight dripping lace patterns onto hardwood floors; places for you to dance around. Your dress is linen. It may be cream. It may be purple. […]

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Him

This pretty little view is missing the most important part: the guy who gives me hope that all of the loss is really just a way to invite new great things in. More unexpected things, more joyful surprises, more goodness, graciously. I didn’t see him coming, in fact I dodged and hid as much as […]

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My Madeline Moment

I never understood the phrase “Your body is smarter than your brain” until I became an adult. In the past five years alone I have learned that lesson hundreds of times over. How sleep and rest are different. How hunger and loneliness can feel like the same thing and are somehow tied. How joy and […]

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These days

Well, I’m not sure these days which way the wind is blowing me. Which way the crow flies. How far it is to safety. I’m not sure these days how to find a way around it all. How to concern myself with the big picture. How to iron out the details. I’m just one foot […]

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